Going Early Alum... need help.

Originally Posted by Old_Row

I just don't know how you could be a big with such limited and negative experience. She would already have a big anyway. I don't believe alumna membership is anything like college membership and you are looking for something that doesn't exist.

You know, I honestly feel like there are options out there for every situation. I am trying to make the best of mine, and something even like the Pearl program or something would be something that I'm interested in and is a good alternative. No, I will never have a little that I pick, and also picks me from the incoming pledge class, and I won't have "fam nights" and she won't make me a paddle and I won't buy her her first set of letters. I know all of that. I came here looking for alternatives, or something close enough that could be a substitute or see if anyone had gone through the same thing. I had to leave my house because some people don't know how to handle power, or treat others, and I was tired of having people that were supposed to be my SISTERS make me feel like I meant NOTHING to any of them. It's not like I wanted to leave the one thing I'd always dreamed of doing, but at some point your dream has to die in order to save yourself. So I know I will never have that "normal" experience. But I also know that where there is a will, there is a way. I'm trying to think positively about all of this, and to find a way to at least share a special bond with one girl that I could maybe eventually call my little. I HAVE a big and I'm not closed down to adopting another big that I am actually AROUND. So maybe it'll be the same for some other girl.