Needing help fitting in despite rough circumstances.

[lunalovegood]

Okay, I should probably clear up the issues.

For DZsis&mom, I put Christmas but meant Thanksgiving... my big & I stopped talking much after Thanksgiving and throughout the Christmas season it was uncomfortable. I edited that in the post; thank you for pointing it out to me.

If I thought my case would hold in a legal setting, I'd go through with it. But, unfortunately, because I was afraid and terrified and felt absolutely disgusted with myself after it happened, I didn't get a rape test or anything. I was in shock. I didn't press judicial charges until over a month later.

I was initiated. I'm repeating the semester so none of my grades for this semester will count. I have to talk to my VP Scholarship to see exactly how this will affect my membership status/standing, and possibly the President as well.

I was seeing my school counselor and psychiatrist, and my school counselor was not enough for me as I could only see her every other week at most. The counseling center I have now is setting me up with weekly appointments, at the least.

My main issue is that I would like to know how I can better reach out to my sisters; as I said, these are girls I love and want to get to know better, but I need to know how to do this when I feel like a sea of my own unique and bad experiences and my own mental state seem to be hindering me from doing this.