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Hey everyone. This is kind of getting out of hand.
I came on here because I express myself better when I write. It helps me thing. And by posting (relatively) anonymously on a message board to people I don't know who might know a little bit about what I might be going through, I thought that maybe it could lead to some good feedback.
It certainly has. I just want to go over some things real quick that are on my mind:
1) When I said I'm "putting my tastes aside" I mean that I'm not worrying about whether or not people will think I'm cool for not listening to Animal Collective. Because that's a rut I've been in that I want to climb out of.
2) I decided to add some things to my wardrobe and to wear them out. I wore them out the first night I went out with the girls from AST. I'm not throwing away my Ramones shirt or anything like that. But I'm not wearing those things like a badge of honor, either. That's another rut that I'm trying to get out of.
3) I'm really not as crazy as you all probably think. I'm really not depressed or have any other real issues. I'm just a little tired of the same old in my life and want to see what else is out there. I think we all, whether we care to admit or not, do put on a mask at some point to identify ourselves as part of a larger group. I'm trying to take mine off for a little bit. I've been too wrapped up in looking cool and worrying about whether or not the bands I liked were trendy enough. I'm trying to get passed that and by finding people who don't care about that stuff I think will help me evolve past that.
4) I really don't think that "all sorority girls are the same." Especially not after this week. Last night, I hung out with someone who wants to be a history teacher. Another girl wants to work in speech therapy. Another is an accounting major. All from different areas, really nice, etc.
4) But just because I'm getting past that doesn't mean that I'm stopping what I was into. I just got back from seeing Dinosaur Jr.
5) I'm glad a few of you used your detective skills to find out where I went to school. But posting photos of people to mock them isn't cool, I don't think. What does that person have to do with anything, other than the fact that she went to the same school that I do? I'm sure you wouldn't like it if people posted your picture on a message board without you knowing about it.
Thanks for everyone who has really tried helping me out here. This time last week, I was pretty down in the dumps. But I haven't been this excited or happy in a while. I'm starting to see the world a little bit differently and myself as well.
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