Open Letter 8

[NiaX]

Dear Lord,
Many things have happened over the course of a few months. What did I do that warranted these actions? I don't know if my faith has grown, so I don't know if I have even thought about the goodness that you will bring. I know I am not you so I do not know what you will do or how you will do it. I just know I am hurt and angry moreso at myself and I want to know will those parts in my life be restored. Also, I don't know if I am hearing your voice or praying correctly so I can hear your voice. I hope that all these points are delays and not denials.
The current point that has me hurt, Lord, is something I really know I reacted improperly due to miscommunication. I hurt the other party and after humbling myself, I saw everything. I want the other party to forgive me, and to grow with me. I am human, and I showed how human I was repeatedly. Lord, show me what I can do to be back in the other party's good graces, and to rebuild their trust and love. I have been repenting my ignorance of the miscommunication, but is that enough? Something wasn't right, and I am trying to correct it...and I also pray that the re-connection is in your will. I hope that at this time the re-connection is a delay and not a denial. I just want to hear from you, Lord.

Your ever progressing student