I don't know how I feel about my sorority...

[sb55]

Hi guys,

So I rushed this spring semester and got a bid to a sorority I didn't really like. I couldn't go to that many events before initiation because I was busy with a lot of other extracurriculars. However, at the events I went to, I really didn't connect with the girls and the atmosphere didn't seem welcoming. Also, at my school, this sorority has a reputation for being "weird" and is made fun of (especially at the frats). I was still torn about whether to quit or not, but didn't have time to think about it (I went to 3 different out-of-state competitions for dance). I got initiated right before spring break, came home and finally and some down time to get some advice...now I find out I'm not allowed to join another NPC sorority, ever.

I'm so frustrated and I can't believe it took me this long to realize they don't have what I'm looking for in a sorority and that I should have just quit when I had the chance.

I love the idea of sorority but I just feel so frustrated. I'm generally a nice person, but whenever I tell someone I'm in my sorority, they get that "Oh...you're in *that" sorority" face. I'm really sick of that and I don't want people to judge me anymore. I asked a lot of people for help but none of them ever mentioned the lifetime commitment rule...

The biggest issue I have is that I wanted my sorority to be a group of girls that go out and really have fun. There's some sororities on campus who are planning trips with other frats, going out to clubs, going to Renaissance Fairs, even, but my sorority really isn't like that. There are a few outgoing people but a lot of the people are sort of introverted, stay-at-home, socially awkward-ish. (I got that vibe from them and some older members have mentioned it too). It's a lot of money to pay for people I don't even care that much for.

How do I deal with this? Should I stay in it or just quit? Is it better to be in greek life than not?

Thanks!