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Originally posted by smiley21
all except #1 describes me. but the thing is i am very obsessive about the control that i have over my life. i know i have to get up everyday. there are certain times that i have to wake up by or my whole day is shot. i leave an hour early for work even though i am fifteen minutes away. i have a fear of being late. everything has to be right. i cannot fail at things that i do at work. it contributes to my bad mood. i have to pass my classes in school or i will never forgive myself. cause i already messed up a lot in that area. i just have to stay in control even when i have no control. i have to make things happen. so i guess my mood does control my life. its the one thing that i have given up on. i just let it take over. on the outside, i try to stay on top, but inside i know that i am a failure.
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Holy crap I thought I was the only person who felt this way. I feel EXACTLY the same way as you described. If I do everything right except for one little thing, like forgetting to do the dishes or something, I feel like a useless failure. Well, you're not alone. If you ever want to vent, PM me
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