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I woke up the morning of bid day feeling good, but still anxious. It was about 9 am, and bid day activities were supposed to start at noon. I got ready, and finished at about 1045. I was so happy because I hadn't gotten the call and figured I would have by then if it was going to happen. I walked in the other room and came back to a missed call and a voicemail from a number I didn't recognize. My heart sank. I called the number back and it was my greek life advisor telling me I didnt get a bid. I was stunned and beyond upset. I had felt so good about Pink the whole way through rush, but at pref night I had that gut feeling telling me that something wasn't right. I cried for an entire day about it..and a few times after that. Im not usually an emotional person but there was something about that hit me really hard. To make things worse, all of my friends made it into pink, and instantly uploaded all of their bid day pics onto facebook that day. I just wondered why this happened. Was it because of the boyfriend thing? Was it the pref night girl just not liking me? Or was it just that I wasn't Pink material?
I still didnt regret my decision to "suicide" on pref night. I know I would not have been happy at Green. And I'm very glad because later in the middle of the year, Green was having a lot of internal disputes, which led to a lot of girls dropping and they may be losing their charter if they cant get quota. The girl I liked on pref night at Green, the only one I ended up clicking with there also dropped at that point.
The first few weeks were really hard at school, everyone had their new sorority clothes that they would wear around campus, and fun socials that they went to. To make matters worse, my boyfriend was pledging the frat that Pink was paired with for everything. The whole experience left me with feelings of jealousy and hurt my self confidence a bit.
One day I was walking through campus and happened to see one of the girls I really clicked with at Pink. She pulled me aside and told me she was considering dropping Pink, and proceeded to tell me what happened on pref night. After all was said and done, the actives at Pink met to discuss and privately vote on the girls they thought were Pink material. Before they voted, the girls discussed each PNM's strengths and weaknesses. There was a girl I went to high school with who was an upperclassman in Pink. I hadn't thought much about the fact that we didnt like each other in high school, and I figured that was long ago anyway that it wouldnt matter. Appearantly this girl told the other actives ugly lies about me and said she wouldn't tolerate it if I was in the house. of course the actives would listen to their sister and believe her, especially since they dont really know me.
This didnt surprise me much, the possibility entered my mind. I will never know if this is really true, but based on the things she said it sounds plausible. It made me feel a lot better knowing it wasn't my fault, it wasnt me or my personality, and it could have just been some silly high school dispute.
I was still upset though and so sad about how rush turned out, especially since I had been planning on being in a sorority for as long as I could remember.
Then one night I got a call.
It was one of the sisters from ___ inviting me to a COB event they were having. I was quite happy about that call. I figured it would be a second chance at one of the houses and I could give it a try. I figured even if I didnt like it, it was still worth going to.
Anyone want to take a guess about which house(or color!) gave me the call?
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