Needing help fitting in despite rough circumstances.

[DubaiSis]

I haven't been through this myself, thankfully, but I'm wondering if telling the police and working through all of that might help you recover by way of giving yourself a little empowerment. Do talk to your therapist about this possibility. Rape is such a common thing in college that I think you'd find you have a lot more support than you thought. Of course, not to completely poop rainbows, you will also have people who blame you. But I think you will find the supporters outnumber the pigs.

I also don't know the life cycle of this type of grief. Maybe there is no normal period of recovery, but it sounds like you're talking 4 months or so. I think you might be expecting a lot out of yourself in a short period of time. Talk to your family if you haven't already. And as far as the sorority goes, use them to the extent you can. Try to open up a little to them so they can understand, support and help. And do try to be honest with the school about your situation. They are going to be a lot more supportive with a girl going through this than a freshman girl who's just a flake. Honesty is going to be the best policy here and a lot of schools have tremendous support systems in place. Finally, I know my sorority offers confidential counseling free to its members. I don't know how that could help in addition to what you already have, but it's something to be aware of.