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Dear You,
It is hilarious to me that I have been having a crush on you for 50-11 years and now that we are speaking again, it all came back. The best part is that I just sent you an email saying that and I am TERRIFIED that I will get my face cracked! Please don't think that I am crazy. I really think that your friends words compounded with my lonliness and singledom have gotten the best of me. But, the truly interesting part is that it's simply that I still harbor an old school crush on you. Yes, we've only been emailing for a few months. No, we have even spoken on the phone yet, nor have we seen one another since about 2001, but I think that this could be something. I could be wrong.... It's just ironic that we have so much in common. Is there a reason why we've reconnected after all these years? Is there a reason why I feel like even though we haven't seen one another, none of that matters because our conversations are allowing us to get to know one another without all the superficial external mess getting in the way? Is there a reason why I feel like you could be "The One" that God has for me? Maybe there is a reason that God let us meet so long ago in school and then lose touch, only to come back together after all these years.... Maybe He wanted us to experience life so that we would be really be ready for one another when the time was right...
Maybe I'm tripping....
Whatever it is, time will tell.
Dear God,
If I am crazy and all wrong about this situation, PLEASE put it on my heart to FALL BACK and not put too much into this. I have made so many mistakes in the past with relationships and I am tired of it. I know that I have been asking You repeatedly to give me patience and allow me to wait for You to send the RIGHT person to me when You felt I was ready. Is he the person? Am I ready? I have mistaken this feeling before and fooled myself into believing that some jerk was the the man you sent for me, only to find out otherwise. What's going on this time? I'm praying for an answer....
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