Needing advice

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So a few weeks ago I accepted a bid from my top choice. And although it was my top choice, I didn't feel like it was the perfect fit for me. There are only a few chapters to choose from at my school, and when I went through recruitment I never felt that overwhelming sense of being "home" when talking with any of the girls. Most conversations felt forced or just seemed like small talk. I chose to go though the process because I am a transfer student and didn't know a single person when I made the switch to the new school. Some of my older friends at other universities made the decision to go Greek and loved it, so I wanted to give it a shot too.


On bid day, we were paired up with the person who felt they shared a connection with us during recruitment. This person is supposed to guide you through the new member process, get you plugged in, and adjust you to Greek life, almost like a mentor. The girl I was paired with was very sweet to me during recruitment, and told some of the other members about how much she liked me. But ever since I first joined, communication between her and I has been almost non-existent. She has not come to any of the events or chapters so far, which has left me by myself (we were mainly supposed to hang out with the person we were paired with at these events and ceremonies). It has put me in an awkward position and I feel like it's put me at a disadvantage when it comes to meeting the active members. On facebook I keep seeing pictures of new members hanging out with the active member that they were paired outside of greek events, and it's making me feel weird that I have not done any of that yet. When I've tried reaching out to her, she has been busy. Of course I have been talking to people at everything on my own, but it's very noticeable that she is never with me.


I was uncertain about my decision to join Greek life because of my feelings during recruitment, and am starting to consider dropping before I become initiated. I feel a little bit left out, and I'm still not really bonding with anyone. I have heard so many amazing stories from friends at other universities who fell in love with their chapters, but I'm not sure if that love will come.


I know I sound dramatic but it's a big decision to drop and I want to have the best college experience possible. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.