Depledging a "loser" sorority?

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First of all, I am new to this board so I'd like to say hi to everyone.

Some background info. I am a sophomore at a competitive school in Texas and, though I never thought I would, I ended up rushing this year and accepting a bid to a sorority. I didn't know a whole lot about the Greek system here or rush or reputations when I was rushing (I was involved in completely different things last year). Anyway, I went into rush thinking I was doing all this to meet some new people, make some friends, and that I'd be happy wherever I woudl end up. I didn't know the sororities' repuations, and I didn't think I cared. It's been several weeks now since I've pledged and apparenlty the sorority I joined is known as the fat, loser one around campus. A lot of my fellow pledges have already quit becuase of this, in particular a lot of the girls I really liked and thought I could be great friends wiht. Our pledge class has like 10 people left, when quota was supposed to be in the thirties. Now, I would not depledge based on reputation alone (I am not that shallow and realize in the end, it's about the popele you meet- and I do like a lot of them) but I do not see the point of paying dues if association with the sorority will only give me a bad repuation around campus. (People in other greek organizations stop talking to you when they realize you are in this sorority, none of the frats will mix wiht us, etc). Also, so far it hasn't felt like we've been doing much. There has been one crush party, but it was really really lame, and one new member retreat that only about 4 people attended. I go for weeks w/o seeing any of the older members. My point is, it doens't seem like being in this sorority will even accomplish a fuller social life or more friends. So I want ot depledge, but am afraid I'll make a huge mistake, buecase the idea of life-long sisterhood and all that other good stuff really appeals to me, and I know I will probably not re-rush.

Any help would be really really appreciated.