Resigning/Disaffiliating... Help!!

[gagirl90]

Hey yall!
I have a question about resigning from my national GLO and would love your insight especially if you have been through the same thing.

I rushed last year (as a freshman, and we have deferred rush) and pledged a house that seemed like really chill girls. Now all anyone cares about is becoming more top tier (to be honest we're one of the less popular houses on campus but still have great girls and meet quota) and portraying this Suzie sorority overachiever stereotype, which is so not me. Yes I have a great resume, but I don't need to flaunt it! I feel ostracized the majority of the time for not fitting in well with the girls in the house and feel like a black sheep. I am also unpopular with our exec board and standards board because I am THAT girl who is not intimidated by their authority and will defend myself when necessary.

Because of certain events and prior sentiments, I have considered resigning and would love insight into this situation from anyone, especially if you have been through anything similar. I know these girls are not healthy for my self esteem or mental health (I have been depressed from incidents in my sorority and have sought therapy to talk about the way sisters are treating me) but I am scared to be an independent at a greek-heavy sec school - I don't want to feel left out. Also I always wanted to be part of an alum group when I'm older..
Please help! Tell me about the decisions you made and how they worked out.
Thanks everyone!