Last night was easily the most intense night of recruitment.
To start, there was a
lot of heartbreak. My rho gamma group went from twelve to five. My mean friend and one other that I know of were cut from all of the chapters and a few quit because they didn't like their choices. I have no idea what happened to the others. There were only two of us (including me!!) going to two parties.
I honestly cannot believe how perfectly recruitment is going for me after the first night. It's so hard to try and not act really happy and excited around my friends who aren't doing as well, but I'm trying to be respectful. As you can probably imagine, I was invited to my two very favorites. The super popular chapter and another one where I've had the best conversations all week.
I went to the super popular one first. The girl who rushed me was one that I had met at the very end of the first night, but had come over to say hello every night since. I had really liked her, despite hardly getting to talk to her, so it was nice to have that opportunity! She told me how she had to fight off girls to be able to rush me!
The ceremony was beautiful and my rusher began to cry! And I mean, very loud, noticeable crying, which made me cry! She apologized and told me that every year pref night reminds her of what an amazing sisterhood she has and she can't control her tears. I thought that was very sweet. Also, apparently her pledge name is Tissues because she cried the same way on pref night when she went through rush! I left this chapter thinking there was no way the other chapter could ever live up to this one.
Yeah, you probably could figure out that I was wrong.
I also knew the girl who rushed me here and really liked her! She sat me down and told me she'd heard that recruitment hadn't been the easiest for me (I guess word had gotten around to the other chapters), but that it would all be worth it in the end and that whatever happens, whether or not we're sisters, she wants us to be friends. (It was said in a much less corny way that flowed with the conversation, promise.) I loved the ceremony here too, although I didn't cry.
And, for the first time all week, I had absolutely no idea who I wanted to put first.
So I went and had an hour long discussion with my rho gamma. I hadn't mentioned her before and didn't talk to her after the lower chapter debacle because I really thought she didn't like me. She came across as cold and barely looked at me even when she was talking directly to me! But tonight we talked and she gave me some advice: She told me to think about which chapter I could do normal, non glamorous things with, like late night fast food runs or which girls I would feel comfortable at in sweats and no makeup.
I ended up putting the really popular chapter first. After all, they had already seen me cry! (and I am not a very pretty cryer, lol) I felt like it had been easier to let go of my emotions there... it seemed a little less formal.
I'll know for sure where I'm going in only a few hours. Like I've said all week, no matter which chapter gives me a bid, I will be a very, very happy girl.
Sorry if this is rambly or doesn't make sense. I'm so tired and drained today!
at your friend's comment. While I can appreciate her loyalty to you, I hope she is not counting on being invited back to that chapter. Her statements raise a number of red flags, and I'm afraid she may well be cut by that particular chapter. 
Looks like I need to change my name because I am definitely no longer a sad PNM!
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