My situation is complicated. I need some input.

[unhappy-active]

I'm going to try and summarize my situation since it's long and complicated.
I joined ABC fraternity about 1yr and a half. It was during my sophomore year so I already had many friends who are GDI's. I met an ABC member at one of their rush parties and basically rushed and ended up getting a bid and therefore pledging. There is a little detail here. I am GAY AND CLOSETED. I decided to come out to some of my closest friends during the process of pledging. Although I only revealed my homosexuality to a couple of close friends rumors started and I guess they got to the ears of some of the ABC members. I started hearing rumors about members thinking about black-balling me because I was a queer. They never confronted me about it but they sure gave me hell throughout the rest of my pledgeship. I crossed, got initiated and everything. Now I am an active member of ABC but a lot of "bros" still hold grudges against me and through other brothers I've heard that they talk crap behind my back. I am tired of all this and I am thinking of DA'ing and just let it be over with. But what if I come out to them and I don't want to DA, can they force me to DA? Are there any laws that protect me? Should I just DA vonluntarily? I need some input because I am getting tired of living a lie.