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Originally posted by swissmiss04
Has anyone caught this month's Glamour? It's a "body love" issue.
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It was that issue that sparked this thread. And the fact that I am kinda depressed about my weight
Im sick of weighing 150 I have tried for the past year to get back to 140 or 145. Im not asking alot. I did lose 15 lbs in Septmeber, but that was cos I was depressed and didnt eat (boy issues) and I went from 160 to 145. But now Im back at 150. Ive been at 150 since I was a senior in HS, and I dont want to hear any of the "Maybe thats the weight your body wants to be at" siht either. I dont think Im healthy. I want to get rid of my stomach. I dont mind my boobs or even my butt. I just want to not have to worry about looking bad in cute shirts or having to adust all the time. Even when I was in my dance rep class (its just like being in a company, we create a 15 min peice for the dance concert) and exercizing like a mo-fo (500 sit ups, 100 pushups on a light day...), was in colorguard and had bronchitits really bad... I didnt budge from 150 or lose any weight in my middle.
I hate when I go home and people are like "You lost weight, you look good" I ask how they can tell and they say "Oh your face" well yea, maybe my face is losing weight, but Im not anywhere else.
And it doesnt help that my one friend is trying to recover from years of bulemia and anorexia and she keeps making comments like "108lbs, Im so fat" and I say "yea try 150..."
And my roomie has the same issues I have, I am smaller than her, but shes also taller and has a bigger frame. And I cant stand it when I just want to use my god given right as a woman and complain about my weight and shes like "Oh then I must be huge if youre fat" No... Im saying that I am fat for my body... not saying that if I weighed this and was in your body that I would be fat.
Oh and heres the kicker: I am too big for stores like Abercrombie and Hollister... yet too small for stores like Lane Bryant.
Where the hell am I going to get cute clothes?
SORRY THAT I KEEP VENTING... this is good therepy
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