elisa,
you've helped a lot, trust me! so has everyone else. this will never be easy and you're right, i can't run from it.
i don't think i'm going to transfer. the reason behind this is because in talking to my mother (who's also a therapist) and father, i came to realize that it was partially the CAMPUS that was making me miserable but also the fact that he was still there. the university did not kick him off campus, even after teh state of CT found him guilty, because they said it was a "he said, she said story and i could provide no sufficient evidence." don't even START me on that....but anyhow. he graduated this year so next year will be completely different: i can walk around campus with a *little* more safety than before and my sisters will still be there for me. if i run away to ithaca, that's all i see myself doing, is running away. the rape will still be with me.
elisa, do you find it hard to believe that the rape will be a part of your life forever? we've both been going through this abut the same length of time. how have you been handling things? are you in therapy or on meds? i'm with both. i'm on zoloft and seeing my mum's colleague every week, which i think is a good thing.
also, to other greeks out there...what have your organizations done, if anything, to combat the issue of date rape on campus? have your brothers/sisters talked about keeping yourselves safe, keeping each other safe, managing the aftermath that sometimes comes with parties? has there been any education on your part to the campus? just curious...
etienne
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