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Originally Posted by AZTheta
Would you rather be right, or would you rather be happy?
Honestly, reading your lengthy posts several times, I'm thinking that you are holding on to something that would be best let go as it is in the past, and needs to stay there. No one saw it the way you wanted at the time; no one agreed with you, and you are struggling with that still.
I think Sen's advice was excellent and hope that you will find your way to a place where you can enjoy your membership the way he outlined it.
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It probably would be for the best to let it go. It still puzzles me as "what did I do wrong?" If other people are free to be who they are and dress how they want and it didn't seem to bother anyone, why couldn't I do the same? No one answered that question. But I guess. Maybe you're right. maybe it is time to let it go. It may just be a question that will never be answered and it's best to move on because it only holds me down and bothers me. It takes time to let go of stuff.
It's a learning experience. I'm positive i'll run into the problem again. But it may not be me next time. It may be a niece, a nephew, a friend, neighbor, student, mentee and so on. So i'll need to look it over in the future and see what is the better way of responding to it.
I would rather prefer it to be happy. I do enjoy the membership *now. It took nearly 2 years to begin to enjoy the membership again. Meeting newer members and some returning faces. It did make me happy and I did enjoy the membership. It felt like a whole new fraternity when I walked into union (cafeteria) and was approached by a Neo. I wore my APhiO shirt and just walking by, the Neo approached me, introduced himself, and we ended up having a small chat.
It was something different. It showed respect and pride.
So Sen is right. Those guys who said those things probably aren't there anymore. They probably have graduated and left.
The brothers who should matter to me should be the ones who stick around. Some people come and go. The really important ones stay around and make a lasting impression. There's a reason some people aren't a part of our lives. They aren't as important.
When the semester begins. It'll be a new experience for me with a new group of brothers. So I'll be looking forward to a whole new experience. Not as an active, but as a brother again.
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