Help with a tough decision

[flowerchild28]

Hello all, I am new to GC, this is my first post!
So, I go to a small midwest school. I rushed last winter but my sorority was shut down shortly after. I was never initiated. I felt very betrayed and hurt. I didn't know beforehand that the sorority was in any sort of trouble- neither panhel nor my school told any of us girls who were rushing. However, since I was never initiated I am allowed to rush in the fall. Here's the problem: my school is small and now only has a few sororities. I previously rushed all of them and am a legacy to one of them. I really, really, really would love to be in my legacy sorority. However, I am scared that I will be denied again. Last time I rushed, that sorority invited me back only once. I never even got to pref night for them and was heartbroken. Ever since my sorority got shut down, I have been thinking of rushing my legacy sorority. However, friends have been encouraging me to bring a new national sorority to my campus since we don't have many sororities. I have taken the initial steps for this, and can't do anything more until panhel votes on it (which they are supposed to do this fall). So, should I wait for panhel to vote and then hope I get chosen to colonize this new sorority? Or should I rush my dream legacy sorority and hope that I don't get turned down again? If I got turned down again I would be embarrassed and heartbroken, that's the only thing holding me back.

p.s. I now have a friend in the legacy sorority who said she really really wants me to be in it. However, I know that one person cannot sway an entire sorority to give me a bid.

Thank you for your time and help!