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It was pref day. And I awoke with the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach. Something told me that I had been dropped from recruitment. I couldn't wait for my recruitment counselor to call me. I needed to hear it right now. So without even giving it a second thought or looking at the time, I called my recruitment counselor.
"Just tell me." I said. "I've been cut, haven't I?"
"No." She responded groggily. I had clearly just woken her up. "We got your schedules last night. You're fine."
"THANK YOU! SORRY! SEE YOU LATER" I screamed. I was almost there. I was going to preference.
Fast forward a few hours, we met up with our groups and our recruitment counselors. I apologized to mine again and she just laughed at me. She told me how funny I was and that she couldn't believe how nervous I have been. She pulled me aside to calm me down. I'm pretty sure she wasn't allowed to say this, but she did. She looked me in the eyes and said, "2ndsemestersnr, you're going to be in a sorority tomorrow. Don't worry."
I didn't believe her. But she handed me my schedule for pref and I was about to get the biggest wake up call of my life. It read:
1. Fuji
2. Braeburn
WHAT??? Golden Delicious dropped me?? But why?! They loved me! I know it! It was just like Red Delicious all over again. Why was this happening? I had two underwhelming houses to go to today. No more dazzling smiles and catchy songs and beautiful girls.
Now you have to understand this, before recruitment, I never even dreamed of being in the "top" house on campus. I had always assumed I would be in a "bottom" house, fit for an average girl like me. But recruitment played with my head. I started to believe I was something I wasn't. People told me how gorgeous I was, and that I would be a shoe-in for any sorority I wanted. And that made me want to be something I wasn't. It was confusing and overwhelming and in that one week, I lost almost all sense of who I was. But I think it was truly necessary, because that was when I started to figure out who I was. I was capable of being an extraordinary beautiful women, but I didn't want to force myself to be one in order to fit in with others. I realized that "top" houses didn't mean the girls weren't down to earth. And "bottom" houses didn't mean the girls weren't beautiful. There was something in every house to offer and I would end up where I was meant to be.
And so with that 30 second life changing dialogue in my head, I was fully okay with the fact that my home would be either Fuji or Braeburn. (Hopefully…)
My first preference ceremony was Fuji. The one I was more excited about. And it was amazing. The girl I fell in love with was the one who preffed me. The one who I thought was basically my twin. We had everything in common and she was truly an amazing girl. I got so excited when I saw her standing at the door waiting for me. She had the biggest smile on her face and I knew I was welcome in their home. She told me how much she would love to have me as a sister. She shared with me some of the other things girls had said about me throughout the week. We talked about what I was looking for in a sorority. She told me about her recruitment experience. She said Fuji had everything she was looking for and more. She told me she knew it would be a great fit for me. She asked me what other house I was visiting and how I felt about them. She helped clear up some questions I had. She explained how preference voting would work and how it would be a little different than the rest of the week. She told me about suiciding which I only briefly knew about. She told me that she and many other sisters had been in my exact position with the same 2 houses, and they all suicided for Fuji. At this point in the conversation I was sure I was going to be a Fuji. She clearly wanted me to be one. She told me that as long as I wanted to be a Fuji, there would be a bid waiting for me with my name on it. This was about to be my home. We spent the rest of the conversation talking about how fun bid day would be and what activities they had planned for us. She also told me what fraternity we would be going to homecoming with. And that was the first moment I felt like I was actually in a sorority. And it was amazing. I walked out of Fuji feeling amazing. I didn't want to leave. I wanted it to be tomorrow so I could run back to my home and be with my sisters. It couldn't come faster.
My next house was Braeburn. But my mind was closed. I had already made up my mind. I was going to be a Fuji girl. Braeburn's preference ceremony didn't even compare. The girl who picked me up at the door was just a random girl who I talked to earlier in the week. I had only vaguely remembered her, and she even asked me "Did we talk earlier this week?" It didn't make me feel special at all. It just felt kind of lame. But it didn't matter because Fuji said they wanted me and I wanted them.
Needless to say I ranked them like this:
1. Fuji
2. Braeburn
The rest of the day/the next morning was torture. I couldn't wait for bid day.
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