Vintage Missouri Recruitment!

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Day 4- Pref
This day we could go to three houses, I got my list and I had been cut by Portugal. I was a little disappointed because they were definitely in my top two, but I was very happy to be retuning to England and was glad that Monaco hadn't released me. I still had a tough decision to make Finland or Denmark? I decided to release Finland over Denmark because I had just had such rough conversations there all week and I knew that Denmark at least really wanted me.
First up was Denmark. They had scared me a bit with their over-zealous ness during the week, I really felt a true bond between the girls and knew that they wanted me to be in their sisterhood. I was very happy there and thought that I could probably be very happy there.
Next up- Monaco. Monaco was lovely, but I really felt like I was going through the motions, smiling, talking, etc. I knew that it wasn’t really making my heart sing to be there.
At both Denmark and Monaco, I was really impressed by the ritual and beauty of their ceremonies. Both houses made it clear that I would be a good addition to their houses and that they wanted me. But I wasn’t sure if I wanted to be one of them. They were both wonderful houses, but I wasn’t swept away with desire to be a member. Also, both of the ceremonies were beautiful and meaningful, but I wasn’t quite understanding why the girls in the house, especially seniors, were crying. I vividly remember sitting there thinking “you still have your entire senior year together- why are you all upset?”.
I had England last. This was the house that had comforted me and had seemed the most “real” during the week. At the pref ceremony, the president talked about sisterhood and shared some funny stories. The fact that this ceremony was a little more lighthearted and not filled with tears and a somber attitude was exactly what I needed. I talked to the same girl as the day before. I knew that I wanted to be in this house. I wasn’t feeling like I was having to put on a show or project myself to be the type of person I thought they wanted… I knew that they wanted me for me. At this point the words of my sister-in-law “you will just know when you have found your home” came true. I really wanted to be in England.
It was easy for me to pref my houses.
England
Denmark
Monaco
I talked to my mom that night and told her that I loved England and really only wanted to join it. She asked me why I had put the other two on the card at all and I explained that suiciding a house was a very bad idea, but I knew she was right. If I didn’t get England, I wasn’t sure I would be able to join the other two houses.
Again, looking back this was a silly outlook. I would have been VERY happy at any of the sororities at Mizzou, but I am just trying to explain how I felt in that moment.