I'm 20. I go to a really big church, and there are currently 10 COUPLES, not people, but couples, in my age group, about 18-22, who got engaged this year. My boyfriend of 2 years & I just broke up a month or so ago. We had talked about getting married after college, it was actually kind of the plan. And, as upset as I am about the break-up/having my vision of the future shattered, I am SO RELIEVED that we didn't get married already. Don't get me wrong, I loved this boy. I WANTED to spend the rest of my life with him. But after some fresh air and healthy flirting with all those other fish in the sea, I realize that there IS someone better out there for me. I recognize parts of our relationship that were unhealthy and over the course of several years would wear me out & break me down.
This probably sounds really scatter-brained, but I'm glad I can see now what I couldn't then. Now I feel like all of my friends who are engaged are committing WAY too early/young. The thing is, I only knew what kind of person I would become BECAUSE I saw my future with him. I never formed an identity/future apart from him, maybe because we dated from age 18-20, those vital years.. I honestly have no idea what I want out of life, out of myself, anything. I feel like everyone should figure that out before they find their "other half." (But I also realize that I don't know what will work for everyone, and I wish all of my friends the absolute best
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Anyways, I have said all of that to say... I won't be getting married young. I'm gonna take my sweet time and enjoy life for me.
(whew)
so yeah to everyone who witnessed that crap I put on the D&R random thread a month ago: happy? lol. (I am.)
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