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Later that year…
I was initially very bummed about getting cut from Red Sox and Twins, I for sure thought they were going to fill that “missing” part of my life. I eventually got over it, and was still very happy with my decision to drop out of rush. I knew Reds, Tigers, and Braves, weren’t for me, so I was glad I took it as far as I did, because at least know I didn’t have any doubts or regrets. Phillies, the group that does not participate in formal recruitment, kept sending me invitations for COB, but I still had no interest.
In order to fill that “missing” void in my life, I decided to get involved in other ways. I quit my job at Cold Stone (thank God), when I found a better paying, easier, more fun job, working for the University. I quickly found that the people I would be working with are awesome and what we do benefits our school, so I was really glad to be working there! In addition to that, I joined a club that’s related to my major, and signed up for some intramural teams with friends. College life was good, and I was feeling good about my decisions…for a while.
Now of course I had my own friends I made at the dorms, and in other places, but we just weren’t as close as my high school friends. And while my job was fun, it was still a job, so it wasn’t exactly the best social environment. And while the club was a nice resume builder, it’s a large club, and hard to get involved with. I just wasn’t getting that sense of accomplishment that I thrive off of. And while intramurals were fun, they were short lived and I often had to miss them because of work. Something still felt missing. I just had to figure out what it was, so I thought back to my high school days, the last time I really felt complete. I had my group of friends who I had made through school. They’re an awesome group of girls and we have so much fun together. Then there was my golf team and softball team. We all became close through our seasons together, and they almost felt like family. We could always count on one anther. Being on the team made me feel like I had a sense of belonging. I was also team captain for golf my junior and senior year, and a captain for softball one year on the JV team. Finally, I was involved in a few clubs in school, one of which I held an officer position in during my senior year. So what did this all mean? When I “felt complete” I had an awesome group of girl friends who I always had fun with. I was also part of a group that felt like a second family, that made me happy to know that I always had someone to lean on. I also was a leader and involved, (I know that being a team captain isn’t a life changing experience, but it made me feel good to be have this kind of involvement).
And then I remembered that this is why I wanted to rush my sophomore year again. I knew I could find all these things in a sorority, but now my chances were over. So I just had to remind myself that I gave it my best shot, and it just didn’t work out. I decided that I was just going to have to keep doing what I was doing. Though I may have felt like something was missing, but I was still happy and doing well…
Twists, people, twists!!!
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