HELP!!! I wanna lose weight!

Hi again Sorors,

I made a mistake. I am doing th Philly distance run in SEPTEMBER not November. I am from the Virgin Islands, not sure I can run/walk anyway for any length of time in November either. I am also walking; not running I've had 2 surgeries on my left knee and running is not my thing. And I'm doing the half marathon, not the full marathon. I'm really siked about doing the half marathon.

One of the trainers at my gym want sto do it with me. She is running the marathon next week. http://www.active.com/donate/tntepa/tntepaJSkursk

She said if she does it 'we can't walk like it's a stroll in central park. We have to walk like a tiger's on our a*s*s. I guess she wants me to power walk. She tells me to try to do 1 mile in 15 minutes. I'm not there yet. I can do about .92 in 15 minutes. I am going to train with TNT also.

As for weight loss - I got serious in January. I've loss 12 pounds since then. I started at 199 and am 187 now. I've been stuck here for 4 weeks now. I think it's my diet. I wasn't really paying attention to my food. When I started to look at what I eat, I realize I was downing close to 2100 calories a day. So far this week, I've been able to keep it under 1800. I'm trying to get to 1500 a day. I'm not on any diet specifically. I'm just trying to eat right (and less) and exercise.

Sorry for the long post. Guess i had to get things out. I have been trying to do this alone. It sucks when I have no one really to talk to or lean on. I'm tired of all my so call friends telling me 'but you're tall. You can carry 200 pounds." Whether I can or not, I don't want to. Ok..I'm done now. For real.

Also here are my answers:
Exercise DVD? Hip Hop Abs is my absolute favorite. I also my medicine ball with a arbitrary DVD I got from Amazon. I also have the latest version of the Taebo tapes which I never use. It's just too hard on my knee. I should have known this. oh well.

Fitness magazine? Shape

Healthy treat (dessert-wise)? Werther's chewy Caramel. It's not healthy but I love those things. For heathy, I sometimes peel, dice, then freeze a banana.

Healthy snack? My number one snack is my Zone bars, then quaker rice cakes, a slim fast shake (never as a meal. that's crazy)

Healthy meal (at home)? broccoli and some kind of baked fish or chicken

Healthy meal (dining out)? I don't reall go out much but when I do, I try to go to Applebees then I choose from their WW menu. If not, I just order chicken or fish and veggies. BTW - I loathe salad bars,. eww

Weight-loss website? www.fitday.com (basically a food journal site)

"Trick" to stay on plan? I write down my food daily. I weigh myself and take pictures every Sunday Morning.

[Ideal08]

I went to the TNT meeting last night and it's a done deal; I'm training with them. I'm REALLY excited. And kinda trippin'. They train any ol' body, active or sedentary. We start training May 12th and should be ready for the marathon (or half) in October. So it may not take me a whole year to train for the FPM. And I may do the FULL marathon in October instead of the half. AND I may do it in San Francisco instead of Columbus. Why? I've never been to Cali, and I'm all about free trips (I mean, I earn it, but you know, no need for currency). Also, instead of a medal, you get a Tiffany's necklace when you cross the finish line. Handed to you by a man in a tuxedo. How cool is that?

I'm still starting my training Sunday (cuz TNT starts out at 2-3 miles and PUHLEEZE, I can't start right there, I need to work up to that or I'll still be walking the whole way). AND I'm starting FS. I'm down to 184.5; my binge weight is coming off. I really would like to be at 182.5 by Sunday, but I just don't see it happening. But I'm not depressed about it anymore, and I've stopped the binge. I'm back on track.

Who AM I and what did I do with the REAL Monique? Cuz the REAL Monique would NOT be talkin' about runnin' ANYWHERE. Seriously, although I'm hella excited, I do feel that on some level, I've lost my mind.

[Ideal08]

Originally Posted by BrownSugaBabe

I have been trying to do this alone. It sucks when I have no one really to talk to or lean on. I'm tired of all my so call friends telling me 'but you're tall. You can carry 200 pounds." Whether I can or not, I don't want to.

Soror, I completely understand what you mean. A lot of my friends are overweight and trying not to be, so I can talk to some of them. But I've noticed that the more weight I lose, the less anyone wants to discuss anything with me. Now that folk think I don't have to lose anymore weight based on how I look, they think I'm trippin' or overreactin' or whatever. I've had people roll their eyes at me when I check my pedometer or mention going for a walk or to Pilates class. Or they say, "You still on that $#!t?" What really ticks me off (and serves as the best motivator) is when people tell me my goals are unrealistic and I'll never be toned and I'll HAVE to have surgery to get rid of a bunch of skin and maybe I wasn't meant to be any smaller than I am now and I need to gain the weight back and what did I do and am I sick and have I started smokin' crack (seriously, this was mentioned by someone, I kid y'all not). . . I could go on and on. So now, I talk to Y'ALL and my blog and folk that I exercise with or who I know are on WW. Otherwise, I try not to even mention it. It even makes some people MAD. I'm like DANG, why you mad?

I'm glad I have some cyber-support!!!

[lovelyivy84]

People are like that- your being proactive and getting healthy for yourself threatens them because they can't or won't do it.

Glad to see you are shaking the haters off- you and the other ladies who are so incredibly proactive about your health are an inspiration to me, I gotta say. THere have been so many times that I let depression or a hectic pace interfere with caring for myself that it really really helps to see you guys doin your thang and helps me get it together!

Originally Posted by Ideal08

Soror, I completely understand what you mean. A lot of my friends are overweight and trying not to be, so I can talk to some of them. But I've noticed that the more weight I lose, the less anyone wants to discuss anything with me. Now that folk think I don't have to lose anymore weight based on how I look, they think I'm trippin' or overreactin' or whatever. I've had people roll their eyes at me when I check my pedometer or mention going for a walk or to Pilates class. Or they say, "You still on that $#!t?" What really ticks me off (and serves as the best motivator) is when people tell me my goals are unrealistic and I'll never be toned and I'll HAVE to have surgery to get rid of a bunch of skin and maybe I wasn't meant to be any smaller than I am now and I need to gain the weight back and what did I do and am I sick and have I started smokin' crack (seriously, this was mentioned by someone, I kid y'all not). . . I could go on and on. So now, I talk to Y'ALL and my blog and folk that I exercise with or who I know are on WW. Otherwise, I try not to even mention it. It even makes some people MAD. I'm like DANG, why you mad?

I'm glad I have some cyber-support!!!

[Ideal08]

Originally Posted by lovelyivy84

People are like that- your being proactive and getting healthy for yourself threatens them because they can't or won't do it.

Glad to see you are shaking the haters off- you and the other ladies who are so incredibly proactive about your health are an inspiration to me, I gotta say. THere have been so many times that I let depression or a hectic pace interfere with caring for myself that it really really helps to see you guys doin your thang and helps me get it together!

I just need for people to understand that if I can do it, ANYONE can do it. Seriously.

You kiddin', right? Soror li84, you motivate me!!! Remember? Toocute was tattlin' on me to you? You are still in my book of fitness gurus. We all fall off at times, but you always seem to be 'on it.' Depression WILL jack you up. That's another reason I love walking. I FINALLY learned how to do it when I'm angry, mad, depressed, or anxious. It actually works. By the time I get back from my 4mi walk (this was in my real life when I actually exercised regularly, not sporadically [sp?] like now), I would feel SO much better. I haven't figured out how to battle a hectic pace yet. I guess it's all about planning and scheduling, but those types of things don't work really well for procrastinators because we neither plan nor schedule, and if we do, we don't stick to it.

I guess I see why I'm running the marathon. I need to get my life together, lol. And this is gonna help. If I can be disciplined to do something I don't even much like, I should be able to be disciplined with anything (eating habits, finances, celibacy, going back to school, etc). They say it's a life changing experience. I'm ready to change my life. And I wanna see what this whole 'runner's high' is.

I think I might be growin' up or something.

[toocute]

Originally Posted by Ideal08

You kiddin', right? Soror li84, you motivate me!!! Remember? Toocute was tattlin' on me to you?

oh.what.ever.

I was trying to look back and see when was the last time I posted up in this thread and I find this mess.

I'm jumping on the bandwagon peoples!!! I joined WW at work today and I signed up for SparkPeople over the weekend. I'm LOVING that website...excellent resource.

I'm going to do Flex Points and phase myself into CORE. I'm also walking as my form of exercise for now.

[treblk]

Hey Ya'll, I'm back from vacation in St. Lucia and I had a BALL!! I ate and drank like I stole something LOL, but I also did water aerobics and did tons of walking up and down the hill (our resort was built on a mountain). I hope I didn't put on any pounds, but tomorrow at WW we shall see.

[Ideal08]

Originally Posted by toocute

oh.what.ever.

I was trying to look back and see when was the last time I posted up in this thread and I find this mess.

I'm jumping on the bandwagon peoples!!! I joined WW at work today and I signed up for SparkPeople over the weekend. I'm LOVING that website...excellent resource.

I'm going to do Flex Points and phase myself into CORE. I'm also walking as my form of exercise for now.

YAY, TT!!! LOL Good luck with WW!! I know you'll do great.

Hey y'all! *waving* Just poppin' in with a little update. Well, not really anything to update. Still in the 170's. Not doing too much to get out of them, to tell you the truth. Still in a size 12 bottoms (I have one size 10 Old Navy jean skirt that I rock) and Medium tops. Still walking (running a little bit). Training for the marathon? Oh, I don't know (I haven't been sticking to my training schedule). I know I'm not fundraising, that's for sure. Not sure if I was ready for TNT like I thought I was. My life's all up in the air right now (same script, slightly different cast, still starring yours truly). Went to DC last week and people called me skinny. I didn't like it. At all. I've blogged about it... let it go, I guess.

The highlight of my week? I flew home from DC. And I FIT in the seat COMFORTABLY!!!!! No fat touching the people sitting next to me, and I was in the middle seat!!!! No problem with the seatbelt. AND I didn't have to turn sideways to walk down the aisle. It was a great experience. It really is the little things.

BB91, where did you decide to go for your sesquicentennial trip?

I LOVE coming to this thread and seeing everyone still on track and stuff. Helps me get back on track.

[RedefinedDiva]

I have managed to lose about 4 pounds and am 6 pounds away from my first mini-goal. I get paid tomorrow and I am going to try to spare some money to get my gym membership back up and running. I MUST get back into the gym. I am TOO lazy to even get on a treadmill that I have right in the next room!! What's up with that? I was VERY consistent with my exercise when I was a member of the gym. I need that back.

It's slow going, but I am getting there.

[treblk]

Originally Posted by Ideal08

YAY, TT!!! LOL Good luck with WW!! I know you'll do great.

Hey y'all! *waving* Just poppin' in with a little update. Well, not really anything to update. Still in the 170's. Not doing too much to get out of them, to tell you the truth. Still in a size 12 bottoms (I have one size 10 Old Navy jean skirt that I rock) and Medium tops. Still walking (running a little bit). Training for the marathon? Oh, I don't know (I haven't been sticking to my training schedule). I know I'm not fundraising, that's for sure. Not sure if I was ready for TNT like I thought I was. My life's all up in the air right now (same script, slightly different cast, still starring yours truly). Went to DC last week and people called me skinny. I didn't like it. At all. I've blogged about it... let it go, I guess.

The highlight of my week? I flew home from DC. And I FIT in the seat COMFORTABLY!!!!! No fat touching the people sitting next to me, and I was in the middle seat!!!! No problem with the seatbelt. AND I didn't have to turn sideways to walk down the aisle. It was a great experience. It really is the little things.

BB91, where did you decide to go for your sesquicentennial trip?

I LOVE coming to this thread and seeing everyone still on track and stuff. Helps me get back on track.

uhmm yea..this right here..we must deal with pronto...
I may not have been here..but so what..you aint told no one you was in the eerrea (area for you non-DC folks LOL)

EDT: I've been running 3.5 miles most mornings and feeling freaking GREAT!!

[BabyBlue91]

Originally Posted by Ideal08

BB91, where did you decide to go for your sesquicentennial trip?

I haven't made it anywhere yet (thought it was going to happen in June), but I am leaving the third weekend in August open. I am not brooking any interruptions or obligations and it's going to be an "all about me" weekend!

[toocute]

Originally Posted by toocute

I'm going to do Flex Points and phase myself into CORE. I'm also walking as my form of exercise for now.

My first weigh in was today...I lost three pounds.

[OrangeMoon]

Originally Posted by toocute

My first weigh in was today...I lost three pounds.

Congratulations!!!

I'm starting the Fat Smash Diet today eek:

[BabyBlue91]

Originally Posted by Ideal08

Soror, I completely understand what you mean. A lot of my friends are overweight and trying not to be, so I can talk to some of them. But I've noticed that the more weight I lose, the less anyone wants to discuss anything with me. Now that folk think I don't have to lose anymore weight based on how I look, they think I'm trippin' or overreactin' or whatever. I've had people roll their eyes at me when I check my pedometer or mention going for a walk or to Pilates class. Or they say, "You still on that $#!t?" What really ticks me off (and serves as the best motivator) is when people tell me my goals are unrealistic and I'll never be toned and I'll HAVE to have surgery to get rid of a bunch of skin and maybe I wasn't meant to be any smaller than I am now and I need to gain the weight back and what did I do and am I sick and have I started smokin' crack (seriously, this was mentioned by someone, I kid y'all not). . . I could go on and on. So now, I talk to Y'ALL and my blog and folk that I exercise with or who I know are on WW. Otherwise, I try not to even mention it. It even makes some people MAD. I'm like DANG, why you mad?

I'm glad I have some cyber-support!!!

OMG, I thought it was just me! I have friends, relatives -- and yes, even sorors -- telling me I need to stop losing (I'd like to get between 145-155). The last time I weighed 180 lbs was in 1985 (age 12) and believe you me, NO ONE was encouraging me to maintain that weight then. I'm riding this train to the very end of the line!

[Ideal08]

Originally Posted by BabyBlue91

OMG, I thought it was just me! I have friends, relatives -- and yes, even sorors -- telling me I need to stop losing (I'd like to get between 145-155). The last time I weighed 180 lbs was in 1985 (age 12) and believe you me, NO ONE was encouraging me to maintain that weight then. I'm riding this train to the very end of the line!

EXACTLY!!!!! Everybody had some snide comment to say when I was at my heaviest. But now, I must have HIV (or some other random arse sickness), be smokin' crack, or have an eating disorder. It's crazy. Right now, I'd be happy with 153. That gives me leeway (sp?) to gain 10lbs and still be at a healthy BMI, albeit barely. I understand that most people do this for aesthetic purposes, but if I'm doing it for my health, I need to keep losing. WHY would you encourage someone to NOT try and be as healthy as they can be? It's like people would rather you LOOK good than FEEL good. Whatever, I'm on the train WITH you!!!