MusicLVR's Story...SOOOOO Excited!

[MusicLVR]

Generally I'm a shy person especially when I first meet new people. I've gotten better over the years about it but it still takes me time to adjust to new situations- like going to a new school for example. Once I'm more comfortable I'm still only really comfortable talking to a few people but once it gets past 5 or more I again tend to just sit back and watch more than join in anyway. Thus one of the reasons why I thought joining a sorority would be good for me.

So before I went to school I did all my research and knew I was going to go for it- just do it because if I don't take lots of risks everyday I'll never be challenged and if I'm never challenged then I won't grow as an individual. I also knew immediately which Sorority I was going to go for.

So off I went, called, emailed, and met with some of the girls and asked lots of questions but only really spoke to 2 or 3 of the girls over time. I was always looking forward to seeing everyone, but I was too shy or afraid or something to just say that. Then the semester began and since I had not a clue of what going through recruitment was or ANYTHING (wish I had found this site earlier) I went through the whole process very very cautiously and ignorantly.

The only real perception I had of Sororities and Fraternities where through movies, t.v., and of the news reporting that some woman had been beaten to death (or something similar- but very negative non-the less) while "rushing" a sorority. I was assured of course by the sorority that it was not like that at all. I was still nervous I have to admit (not cause I thought I'd come into harms way but because all of it was still very new to me), but the energy of these girls was very positive and I could see how much they cared about each other and that made me look forward to seeing them. However, cautious me remained cautious through the whole process- remember I didn’t know there was a process taking place at this point- and I kept on going to events but still mostly watching not very much interacting although I asked many questions.

Then one day I went to pref night and I remember being so happy I smiled the WHOLE time. I didn't know what this meant (until I came here and read from other posts). Everything was beautiful. That was the night I thought I'm going to start taking the risks and no matter how shy or awkward I get I'm going to talk to more people. I'd still only pretty much spoken with the same couple of girls and some of the other interests. And when I spoke I was awkward (sometimes) and still cautious, I kept my answers very short and very proper. I didn't want to be rude of course.

So a few weeks went by an I didn't get another email. I didn't get a call. I didn't even really see anyone, although when I did see the girls they would've wave to me, come up to me and hug me- they were very nice to me. I felt sad and didn't want to show it to anyone. I felt sad because I knew something was wrong.

After seeking the advice of a few, I wrote the sorority an email expressing my interest and really for the first time being open about how much I wanted to be a part of their sorority. It was hard for me to do but I knew I had to have some sort of closure either way. So I got a very polite email response letting me know that the sorority had made its selection for the semester. I was encouraged to try again the semester that followed.

I was in shock (although come on- NO calls, No emails I felt the truth in my gut), I was sad and basically felt like I had no idea what had just happened. The whole thing was over in an instant- I mean it was FAST!