lilly, i think lots of us have had doubts at one time or another-some of us have shared those feelings with our sisters, or our dorm roommate, or someone else, but others have not. i always think sharing troubles helps, but some don't feel as comfortable doing so.
right before my initiation i felt similarly to you. i talked to my pledge trainer and my big sister and also with my dorm next door neighbor who was in a different sorority. they listened to me and basically helped me weigh my options and luckily i made the decision to initiate. i still didn't feel a huge part of it until the following year when i officially moved into the house.
my daughter felt the same way last year when she was a new member and wondered if she had made the right decision. she is living in the house this year and is loving it.
you don't have to talk to anyone "official" in your chapter-they don't have to be an officer. just talk with someone that you feel some connection with-maybe even someone who had impressed you during recruitment. i hope that your feelings will change and you will come to enjoy your membership . please let us know how you are doing.
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Last edited by FSUZeta; 12-28-2007 at 06:44 PM.
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