Need advice for fitting into chapter

[FirePaint]

Hey everyone! I'm stuck in a bit of a dilemma and just can't figure out what to do. I was initiated into my sorority (I don't want any bad reputations to get out, so I'll leave it anonymous) last December, so including my new member period, I've been a part of this sorority for a year and a half.

When I was joining a sorority, I knew I wanted to get lifelong friendships out of it. And when I found the sorority I felt most at home with, I hoped I would be able to develop those lifelong friendships.

But there isn't a single girl in the chapter that I even text. I occasionally go out to dinner with my roommate (we live in the house), but that's really it.

My big transferred to another school out of state at the end of last school year, and she only spoke to me once on my birthday since. Even before then, we were never really close. I made the mistake of taking a little this semester. Don't get me wrong, she's a great girl, but I feel like I've screwed up her chances in the sorority, like I'm a failure of a big sister.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to drop, but I don't feel welcome or at home in this chapter anymore. I live in the house, which is a complete and utter nightmare, and I go to events when I can, but I've had a lot of family issues the past two semesters, and I have to go home an hour and a half every weekend to work, so I can't go to anything on weekends.

I'm staying with the chapter at least next semester, since I live in the house and there's no way out of the least. And honestly, I'd rather not drop. But I don't know how to associate with any of my sisters. All I've ever heard them talk about is parties and alcohol (I have never been to a party, and I do not drink alcohol). I don't feel like I have anything in common with them and don't know how to associate with them.

I see the friendships girls in my pledge class have formed, but I just can't seem to form them myself, and I'm out of ideas on what to do. Does anyone have any suggestions of what to try, or if I should really begin to consider dropping after next semester...?

Thanks everyone,
Jo