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So, I told the guy I've been in love with for years that, well, I've been in love with him for years. I know he doesn't want to be with me, which sucks because I've wanted so badly to be with him for years, but basically get-overable. I agreed to go out with a couple of guys I've been blowing off for a while (yes I know I'm and evil mean girl and blowing the guys off wasn't nice) and now they won't go away. I can't get rid of the guys I don't want, and I can't get the ones I want. Life is so frustrating. I'm kind of getting to the point that I'm thinking this is as good as it gets, and I should just get back together with the ex that actually wants me... I'm not terribly crazy about him, but he's so persistant and he really does love me. I'm considering giving him another chance. I know I can make him happy, and I keep thinking that I can grow to love him. Grrr.