me, myself, and my one friend

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i was just wondering if anyone else is like me. i am the type of person that throws herself 100% into one relationship. i consider myself to be very giving and devoted to the person i am close to. because i am like this, i can only truly have one relationship at a time. i cant deal with too many people on a personal level. its too overwhelming. and that one relationship is with my on/off again bf. so that means i dont have any girlfriends. i would like to have a female to hang out with. but i am afraid that will cut me off completely with my bf because i like to have all of my attention on one relationship. when i am at school, it is me against the rest of the students. i dont really talk to anyone and i dont try to. i just go to school to do my work then i go straight home. i live five min. away so i go home between classes. i dont want to hang around on campus. if i do talk to someone, it is really impersonal. i am not really complaining cause i prefer it this way. relationships are way too draining. i can only handle one at a time. seriously speaking, i think there is something very superficial about groups of people hanging out together. they may be very close to each other, but i cant see how it could be really personal. i know i could not handle it. i know that you guys do in your GLOs and i think that is great.... but i am going to stick with myself and my ONE friend.

is there anyone like me?