Dirty Little Secrets

Reading some comments on the DZO board, and thousands of other posts and threads in other forums has made me want to bring this up....

One of the things we accept as truth is that our Rituals bring us together. They are to be the ultimate bonding force, the thing that keeps us together and seperates our friendships from those of GDIs.

But what if...
What if you don't like your ritual? What if it doesn't touch you or move you in any way, doesn't pull any strings in your heart?

This is the situation I find myself in. As an alumnae, I've been through my sorority's ritual countless times in my undergrad chapter, and even at National convention. At first I thought perhaps it was just the atmosphere in my chapter...I hoped when I went to convention I would be moved to tears like so many of the girls around me, but no... nothing.

This really bothers me. I've made a point of studying our ritual on my own time, to try to see what it is I am missing... but I just have no attachment to it. I feel like a bad sister... even though I love my sisters (locally and nationally) with all my heart... I feel as though I am missing something by not "getting into" ritual.

I know this is a hard thing to fess up to, but does anyone else feel this way? I'll add the usual disclaimer that I am not going to discuss what our rituals entail, and I hope no one else does either. I'm just looking for a little advice and perhaps some kindred souls.