Sad and hurt by my Chapter

[UDZETA]

This past week has been big/little week. This is for the girls who are going to be bigs so they get a chance to know the littles. For informal rush we only take sophmores and Juniors. Well I signed up to be a big even though I am a sophmore myself. I did all the events with the new girls and big little picks were last night. I went out a few days ago and got the stuff for my little to be. I even made some really cute stuff and got some halloween stuff too. I got a call last night saying I didn't get a little. I was so hurt for the fact that none of them liked me enough to have me be their big. Plus there should have been enough littles for each big and there was not. I was so sad... Also I feel like I'm closer to the older girls then I am to my pledge class. My pledge class was very clickish. And most of them knew each other before hand when I didn't know anyone. The problem is I just don't feel very welcomed. Not to say that I don't like the girls because I like all of them but there is only a few that are really good friends to me. I notice that our chapter has become very clickish and there are about 15 of us who are left out. Some of the older girls have noticed it too. Now I love Zeta and would hate to leave but if this gets any worst I don't know what to do. I was trying to think of some ways everyone could try to get closer but I really haven't thought of anything good. It just up-sets me that they wanted me to be apart of their chapter but now they don't even act like they want me there. And it's not just me like I said before there are 15 of us that are being left out. I don't even think my big likes me that much because she barely talks to me and she took a new little this time and she got one. Maybe I'm over reacting but I'm really hurt and up-set and don't know what to do!