As I leave the house, it sinks in.

damasa · #1 08-31-2002, 11:06 PM

When I started thinking that I wanted to move out of the house, I thought I would love the idea of getting out. Yet, as I sit here and type this, everything is all packed up except for my computer and a few other things. As I started taking down all my fraternity pictures and that stuff I really began to realize how much I am going to miss living in this house. It might be dirty sometimes, it might be noisy other times, but the memories I have taken from living in this place will stay with me forever.

I guess it's another sign of getting older and closer to graduation. I won't be living in the house again and I only have one more full year of school left. Then it's on to law school and getting on with life. I can't believe how much I am going to miss this place and I still haven't graduated.

Anyone else ever feel like this?

justamom · #2 09-01-2002, 09:16 AM

So many passages in life. You look ahead with anticipation, you look back with cherished memories. There aren't too many changes that don't share these qualities. It really never ends.

One day I was thinking, "NO MORE DIAPER BAGS" the next day, I'm missing the fragrance of talc and yes, Desitin! LOL!

Now I'm on the brink of full blown empty nest syndrome. I know my husband and I will enjoy more spontaneity in our lives. I'm excited for what the future holds for my children, but there are times (so many lately) when I wish I could hold them in the "green rocking chair" and read to them or tell them a story.

When you can look back and smile, you are indeed lucky. You can carry your memories wherever you go and that gives you strength to openly greet and accept the possibilities that lie ahead.

pinkyphimu · #3 09-01-2002, 01:51 PM

i can definately relate to this. when i moved out of my sorority house, i had just graduated. i honestly cried for the 1.5 hours it took to get back to my parents house. five years later, i go back to campus and i still miss being there with all of my friends. it was great having all of the people you care about living a few blocks from you. now, all of my friends are married or are getting married. my college roommate had a baby girl this week. it seems crazy that we have come so far in such a short period of time. the good thing is that the people i cared so much about while in college are still a part of my life, even tho we live hundreds of miles apart! just savor the good times you have left and keep smiling!

KappaTarzan · #4 09-01-2002, 04:16 PM

i know exactly what you mean.. there of course those hard times when you can't wait to leave, and then when you do leave you are so sad!!! i LOVE my sorority and can't wait to see them all again now that i'm moved back into school... best of luck in all that you do damasa!

KDHoney · #5 09-01-2002, 06:06 PM

I was just thinking about all of this the other day. I'm a senior and was helping the freshmen class move onto campus and get settled and I couldn't believe that I am a senior and that this is my last year here. This campus and most especially my sorority have been such a huge part of my life and making me who I am. I know that this year will fly by...particularly this semester, what with an internship, classes, sorority and student government stuff, and applying to law school, but I plan on cherishing every moment, no matter how fast they whiz by me. I also plan on making sure that my friends and my sisters always know exactly how much they mean to me. To all those in the class of 2003, may we make this year, wherever we are, the best year of our lives. May we look back with no regrets, even if there are some tears.

chopper816 · #6 09-03-2002, 12:14 AM

Hootie, when are you usually up at the tables anyway?

Dianne · #7 09-03-2002, 12:52 PM

Wow, I can totally relate to this thread. I'm a senior

and unlike my senior year in high school, I am actually scared and don't want to leave. I've had such a blast, and I can't believe it's my last year. I am living in the house again this year, but I know I will be sad to leave. On Friday night, we had our Pref parties for my VERY LAST Recruitment. I lost it during the last party, especially once all the potential members left and I realized that we had just finished my last rush party EVER! I was bawling, and my sisters were saying, "Well you can come back as an alum." But it won't be the same! I feel so old. It's terrible. Can I just stay in college forever?

KDHoney · #8 09-03-2002, 01:26 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Dianne
Can I just stay in college forever?

LOL...that's why you go to law school, silly

Just kiddin'...I know law school will be totally different from undergrad. Not better, not worse, just different. It's not that I'm not looking forward to it in a way, but I love where I am so much!

MoxieGrrl · #9 09-03-2002, 02:35 PM

Yes, I can completely relate to this feeling.

I felt so sad because it wasn't just like I was leaving my undergrad KD experience....my chapter was then officially closed. This year, when I go back to Bethany for Homecoming, where am I going to stay? Delta Tau Delta is living in our house. They changed everything about it. No longer is it "our" house.

Our house might not have been the greatest, but it was ours. I had so many happy memories at that place. I'll never walk in and see all of my sisters hanging out, working on a philanthropy project, crowding into the bathrooms getting ready for a Saturday, or sitting on the balcony to greet me when I walk up the hill from class.

My best friend was the president of the house and I was VP-Membership. Each of us held our positions for two terms, so we felt it was "our" house. After commencement, we were the last two people to move out. Both of us walked around one last time, kissed each of the doors, and stepped one last time over the threshold where we had our mat that said, "Welcome Home."

Oh God...I am so sad now.

GreekLetterGirl · #10 09-03-2002, 04:01 PM

OH MY GOD!!! Let me just say I am so glad that I am not the only one that feels this way... MoxieGirl.. your words so totally hit home for me.. it brought tears to my eyes, I too am one of few active seniors in my house and I just moved off campus in to my own apt... no roommates. no sisters, no sharing bathrooms... and it gets lonely... I too couldn't wait to get done and move out, but now I am seeing what a GREAT time this is/was... it is so strange to walk in to the house and see my room not being my room any more, Hootie I totally feel ya on the not really knowing sisters any more... we got a great group of YOUNG new girls and I just feel sooo old around them.... Anyways I ma just glad that I am not alone in my feelings ... Hope that everyone has a great year!!!

DeltaBetaBaby · #11 09-03-2002, 07:16 PM

What a depressing thread.

KDHoney · #12 09-03-2002, 08:56 PM

I guess it is kind of depressing, but I think you can look at it in the sense that it makes you not take your senior year for granted. That's what I got from it anyway.

Dianne · #13 09-04-2002, 06:37 PM

Not take your senior year for granted...
AND (in my opinion) make a point to get to know some of the younger members of your organization, especially the new members. I remember being a freshman and not knowing more than a couple seniors. The rest just weren't involved and weren't around. Now I make a point to know the younger girls. That way when I come back and visit, I actually might know some of the people living in the house. Besides, they keep me young.