Should I drop and rerush next fall?

[daisyisconfused]

Basically what happened is I went through rush and loved it as I kept getting invited back to my top choice house, along with a few of my last choices but I didn't let that bother me because I was so excited my top pick wanted me as much as I wanted them. So preference day rolls around and I am ecstatic when I receive my schedule as my top house is still on there. My other house is my bottom choice, the house that had been my bottom choice all week, but again I don't let it bother me because my top choice is still a viable option and I kept hearing the Rho Gammas tell other girls "theres a 75% chance you'll get the house you want from preference round". So I arrive to bid day super happy only to be crushed when I receive my bid card and see I'm a new member at my last choice. I do my best to hide my disappointment and go along with the rest of bid night, running back to my new house and doing my best to socialize, but the reason the house had continually been on my bottom was because I had felt awkward talking to every girl there every single round, and nothing had changed. I ended up leaving early because I felt so outcasted, while everyone was having fun with people they had gone through rush with I knew no one.

Basically my question is this: should I drop? And if so should I rerush? Because I know I want to be a member of Greek life, and if I do rerush I know now how important letters of rec are and I could get a lot as many people had offered to write them for me this summer but I didn't know they were necessary.
Or do I stick it out and be a part of the house I really don't fit in at? Because if I do that I feel like I will not only be ruining my experience but also the experience for everyone else because I will never forget that they were my last choice?
I just don't know what to do and I feel super stressed out about it and so any insight would be really helpful!

Sorry if this comes off as petty or ungrateful and thank you so much in advance for any advice!
(I am a freshman at a PAC 12 school if that makes any difference)