Sorority Termination

Hey, I have recently been terminated from my sorority. I don't want to go into the details, but I contacted the national headquartes of the sorority I'm in and they told me that I could appeal my termination. The problem I am having is whether or not I should appeal it or not. If I appeal and my appeal is accepted, does this mean I will be considered a sister again? Also, I want to rejoin,but some of the girls don't like me and I don't like them. I don't mind paying dues, but it would save me so much money if I didn't come back. I do like some of the girls and I want to be able to work in recruitment and eventually get a little. Plus I love my big so much she is so amazing! Please help, I know I am all over the place lol! Have a great day yall!