Hey everyone,
Today was Bid Day. It was an interesting day, to say the least. I was running late as always, but finally I was all dressed and ready to go, and headed over to University Auditorium. The number of girls sitting in this huge, cavernous room, had noticably dwindled from last saturday. I saw my Rho Chi's right off the bat, and was ecstatic to see Nicole, who has become my rock through this whole messy thing. She had nothing but supportive words and total enthusiasm. Anyways, we sat through a small ceremony and our Rho Chi's were revealed. I was right on every single one of them! Nicole, I was actually torn between two, but she turned out to be a Theta, and that made me glad, because I have the utmost respect and affection for those girls. They're awesome.
So, thus began the march to Norman Field. I think it was described before, but I'll say it again. It's a big football/rugby field to the left of sorority row. Immediately behind it, and also to the left of SR is a huge parking garage. Several hundred fraternity men were lined up on the various levels, a lot of them taking pictures and videos. Tons of cheering and madness. The girls all got together in circles and we waited for what seemed to be an eternity. Finally, we were given our bid cards and instructed to place them on our heads so we wouldn't look through them in the sunlight. I wish I could put into words what I was feeling at that particular moment, but I think my emotions shifted too quickly for them to be pinpointed. Mostly it was anticipation. Sometimes nervous, sometimes pessemistic, other times hopeful, other times I was just apathetic. I remember I had to go to the bathroom pretty badly, and wondered what a spectacle it would be if I opened my bid card and lost control of my bladder. The whole scene was just a zoo, totally ridiculous.
Anyways, we finally were told we could open our cards. I fumbled with mine and finally got it open. It was like a movie, where you can't see or hear anything but this one thing. I pulled it partway out, put the sorority name wasn't immediately on the top of the card. I pulled a little further and saw the word Kappa. I remember swallowing hard and pulling the card out the rest of the way and reading:
Miss M.
Congratulations!
You are invited to become a new member of
Kappa Kappa Gamma
at the University of Florida
ha ha! I bet I had you guys biting your nails at the beginning. I didn't want to give myself away too soon! I thought it would make this post more fun if I kept you in suspense!
Anyways, KKG isn't on sorority row, so I went opposite of the herd towards the house. The other girls that had recieved bids there weren't running though, so I was kind of disappointed in them. We got to the final stretch of sidewalk though, and I saw all the balloons and girls outside, and just bolted. It was like chariots of fire or something. I was the first and only girl running and my new sisters were loving it. They were all cheering and excited. Two girls that rushed me came up with a bag of stuff and gave me huge hugs. The rest of that time is a little bit of a blur. Two other GREAT girls from my floor got bids, as well as a girl I befriended during rush. So there are already some real solid girls in my new member class.
Side note, we got our pictures taken by the photography company that chronicles functions and everything. One of the Flash Photography guys is this guy I was talking to a little bit last year. We get along amazingly, but I wasn't attracted to him so I cut things off. Only thing is, this summer he got way hot, so now I have a big crush on him. Go figure he'd be there on my bid day.
I hope it wasn't a huge faux pas that I chatted with him a few minutes here and there.
But anyways, I got to meet and hang out with all my new sisters. The whole thing is just still so weird and foreign. I got to see the whole house and we ate dinner and did some organizational things. My big was teaching some girls to line dance and the whole thing was just really cute.
The more girls I met, the more I wondered if I made the right choice though. I suppose there are sisters that you will be soul mates with, and others that are just girls in your sorority. I think I met both tonight. I didn't feel the instantaneous bond I felt with the girls at XO, and a lot of them seemed different, and a lot more reserved than me. But I also felt a lot of warmth, like the girls were geniunely happy to know me. Plus, I felt like queen comedian. I have sucha loud mouth, and everyone was really receptive to every dorky joke I told. My big dates a guy from the fraternity next door, AGR, and she told me Kappa's and AGR's have a special bond. This was not pleasing to me because AGR's have an interesting (weird, bad, redneck) reputation. Perhaps I should give them more of a chance, but I pray that we do socializing with more than that particular fraternity. (once again, please feel free to crucify me for making stereotypes, I know I set myself up again and again).
After I left, I dropped by my friend E's house to talk to her and park my car there. She has four best friends in Tri Delta and dropped out right before prefs after being dropped by them after Round III. I feel really terrible. Her roommate and ALL her friends (including me) have joined sororities and I know she feels left out and weird. But she is totally true to herself and knows the person she is really well, so I admire her strength in this tough situation. I shared with her my fears about settling for Kappa, and the horrible thought that I might be in the wrong sororoity. She commended me for dipping my toes in the water and was really encouraging. She had some great things to say and really made me want to stay and try things out. She also reminded me it was ok to leave if I wasn't comfortable come Initiation. It was a good reality check to talk to her, and she instilled a lot of faith in my decision to accept the bid.
So here I am now. I have a KKG wood sign hanging on my wall and a silver key around my neck. I have my new KKG jersey laid out to wear tomorrow. I'm looking forward to lunch and dinner and getting to know all my new sisters even better. I guess at this point, I still feel a lot of ambivelence about the whole thing. I am sure though, that this is somewhere that I CAN TRULY STAND OUT JUST BY BEING MYSELF. That fact alone, is all the encouragement I need for right now.
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Molly
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