ZTAngel, thank you very much for your kind words. I agree that accurate representations are developed through the time that you donate to your organization -- something no Brother of mine on this board can truly comprehend because they are not in my chapter. I appreciate your kindness.
mu_agd, thanks! I didn't realize you don't know any Alphas away from GC. I hope that the Alphas you meet in the future live up to the standard you feel that I've set. I think every Alpha is a great man -- so long as we try.
Peaches-n-Cream, you've always been great to me! I can't wait to hang out next time I'm in New York. Don't worry about things improving with me on the Alpha board -- As I said, I'm not going back, and I'm cool with that. For real!
OTW, first of all: \ooo/
Second of all, even though I was hella upset when I wrote everything I did, I always knew that there would be some idiots (as there are in every organization) who wouldn't accept me for who I am. I, too, hope that they change -- but I'm not holding my breath.
greeklawgirl, the coincidental thing is that I JUST told somebody else that saying last week! It's so true...sooo true.
KSig RC, you are gangsta.
I appreciate your sentiments, for real.
BetteDavisEyes, BASICALLY. I really do appreciate that. "I agree" is a vast understatement.
GP, thank you soooo much. I am glad you brought up APO. Going back to my home chapter for initiation twice a year really makes me proud of BOTH my decisions. And I don't know if you remember that I had a gay APO brother who was murdered in NYC last year, but I've been thinking a lot about him. I miss him a lot, but I am glad that he and I pledged a chapter (and fraternity) that accepted us just as we were.
OTW again.....you are so silly. Do you think my hotness intimidates them?
Jocelyn, thank YOU for that. It's the simple things....brotherhood....so many people aren't ready for that. A simple concept to comprehend, a difficult concept to LIVE.
tinydancer, thank you!!! Truth be told, grinning and ignoring it worked for a while, but you reach a point where you just SNAP and then everything goes back to normal again.
SisterHavana -- someone who LIVES Brotherhood -- thank you so much, not only for what you said here, but how you live your life -- you've really been there for me in countless ways.
DeltAlum, thank you. I'm just trying to be like you!
RACooper....now now....you know I was with you up until the "trash" thing. But all in all, you know we're on the same page. And heck....I can't really call someone my brother if they won't tell me when and where they were initiated, now can I?
ariesrising, thank you for your words....you know I've always loved what you do to further Greek unity across the board! Stilll loving the website.
angelove, thanks...silly. More male GCers need to think I am a hottie so I can have a date.
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Lady Pi Phi, thanks! I've been repeating that to myself all day.
chideltjen, I appreciate everything you said. Just to respond: sadly, I think some people would shun their blood relatives just as much as I've been. Homophobia is rough.
Tippiechick, awwwww thank you so much. I'm sorry this is how you found out. It's like I was telling somebody last week, "coming out" is never one single event. If you life a relatively normal life, you're always coming out to somebody out there who didn't know. But anyway, thanks again.
sugar and spice, okay, so by the time I got to your post, I started getting the misty eyes. You really hit the nail on the head -- it doesn't matter how much service you do if you don't know how to be a brother.
Munchkin03, preach preach preach! You know (on a sidenote) there was a conference on black masculinity in NY a couple months back. It seemed interesting, but at the time I wondered how on earth it could be useful. But now I see. Anyway, yeah...there are a lot of issues we need to address within the community. I really think the legacy of slavery in this country has a little to do with how we view black masculinity, but that's a whole nother thread.
lifesaver, I agree with you wholeheartedly. I appreciate everything and I am very lucky/blessed to have people like you on GreekChat and plenty of Alphas and friends in real life. It's not so much that these ignorant few truly hurt me or somehow inhibit my growth as an individual....its just that you get SICK of it, you know? It's like damn, I only have two cheeks to turn! (Or four, depending how you look at it. lol)
AKA_Monet, thank you for your kindness. The Alphas on GreekChat on the whole have chosen to ignore the issue when they are not telling me that I should have never been one. It's not all of them who are bashing me openly in PMs or blatantly on the boards, but there is tacit agreement from many of the rest. I am taking it to the public to end the taboo about the topic. I am a gay Alpha who is bashed by other Alphas and so long as I remain silent about it, it will keep happening. In terms of the profanity -- go through what I've been through and maybe you'd be profane, too. I won't apologize for the sentiments or the language. You thoughts are noted, however, and much appreciated.
KSigkid -- GO FIGURE, right???? If that's what it takes, let me never be embraced.
All in all, I didn't expect to recieve so much positivity from my post. I know you all don't normally see the "Kennedy Street" side of me, but he's there and will come out when pushed too far. I will acknowledge that I am under EXTREME stress to get Lazarus out on time, and it's moments like this where I really feel the alone-ness of self-publishing. I've got to deal with final proofreads, a cover designer who is in Japan and answers his phone when he feels like it, and waiting for checks to clear at the bank....lol....it's been crazy. So when I come to GC (for entertainment mind you!) I don't expect to receive messages of intolerance in my inbox.
So that's why I'm still taking the path that I mentioned in the first post. I'm not going to the Alpha forum and I'm not taking any PMs from Alphas. They all know how to get at me if they need to speak to me, but as far as GC goes, I've got nothing to say.
I am far too hot for the foolishness.
I thank you all for the love, for real.
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