I have a mild form of OCD. No one seems to believe it because they think people with OCD are clean-freaks & what have you. But I'm very obsessive-compulsive in the way that I live, everything is done a certain way at a certain time even down to how long I "oversleep" past my alarm clock. I'm highly superstitious & if my schedule gets off by more than a minute I'll practically hyperventilate.
Even though my room is a mess & so is my office at work it really is an organized mess to me. If someone were to move one thing in my room I'll notice it the second I walk in. And I can't relax until everthing is back in its place. For example, I recently moved into an apartment with two other girls. I leave my door open during the day or my room gets really cold. I came home last week & sat my things down on my bed & realized that one of my DVD's were gone. I only own 18 DVD's & they are on my computer stand (9 on one side of the monitor, 9 on the other.) I asked one of my roommates about it & she said she borrowed it to watch before bed but since she didn't finish it she wanted to hold on to it for a few more days. She kept the DVD for 2 more days & everytime I was in my room I couldn't help but stare at that empty slot where that DVD belonged. And I really don't mind her borrowing anything of mine, in fact I encourage it I really do, but its like the whole time my things are gone I can't relax.
I hoard everything & can't bear the thought of throwing anything away most of the time. I used to hoard everything from junk mail to napkins from the work cafeteria (I've got a huge stack in my desk drawer) but I'm now getting better about the mail & I've started throwing away junk mail w/ credit cards in them. The rest I still keep on my dining room table. I never throw away a magazine, especially my cosmopolitans & my Sigma Kappa Triangles, & I even keep the wrappers of some of the food I eat (like fruit leather.)
My friends & family just think I'm being a bitch when I want to do things a certain way, or if I ask them to not touch or move my things without asking first. But I'm almost wondering if continuing medication really would help. My family doctor is a weird one because he believes a lot of disorders, migraines, aches, etc. are all stress related. And although he'll prescribe medication for stress-related illnesses he won't continue to do it time & time again. Instead he'll try to refer you to someone that help "cure" your stress. So its almost like a tease that he'll give me medication that really helps but he won't prescribe refills.
For a long time I considered my OCD a problem but now its just part of who I am. I wouldn't mind being able to relax a little though, because my anxiety is constantly through the roof.
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Originally posted by Dionysus
I have a mild form of hypoglycemia too.
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I have hypoglycemia as well. When I was first diagnosed with it I was in Paris, France on a trip with some friends. One of my friends (who used to live in Orlean) took me to see a doctor & he diagnosed me with hypoglycemia. I was so sick for so long that my friends almost admitted me to a hospital. Hypoglycemia is serious, and if those that are close to you don't believe that you have it you need to figure out a way to prove it to them. God forbid if you get sick like I did & no one knows whats wrong or how to help you.
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