Age Difference

[4RunnerStar]

i dont really have issues with age. i'm 18 and my boyfriend will be 23 in august. i prefer older men. i dont think i could ever date a guy younger than me. it just feels too weird.

i can say that i've been with my boyfriend since december and we have yet to really fight. we had a small arguement about a petty issue MONTHS AGO that prolly wont ever come up again. i thought he was mad at me and told him to call me when he wasnt and he called me right back. thats it. i have also never felt safer with anybody in this world, but that could be because of his job.

he is at the age where he's ready to get married and it scares me to death. but i really cant see myself without him. everything just feels "right" when i'm with him. i'm in love with him. its a first for me. he knows it even though i never really say it. go figure. but i will tough it out as long as i can to see what happens cause marriage scares me but being without him scares me even more. i've tried breaking up with him a time or two before but i only did it cause i was scared. i knew i was getting too close and i didnt want to because it doesnt hurt when its over. but i'd tell him that it just wasnt going to work out because of our jobs and me leaving for school next month but he always blows it off and says dont worry about it and changes the subject. he's a cop/firefighter and i also work for a fire department and rescue squad so at any given time we're called out for the most dangerous or dumbest reasons. like just now, he was called to a rollover and i'm working rescue tonight so i'll see him at 7AM when our shifts end and i meet him at his house to go to sleep. for some reason i find it really hard to sleep when he's not there. especially if he's working.

so i guess my view on the age difference is kind of obvious.