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Originally posted by lovelyivy84
do you think you'll ever feel comfortable sharing your condition with your family?
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I've given a lot of thought to this, and I honestly think the answer is no. Not because they wouldn't be wonderfully supportive - they would be. I know they would do everything in their power to help me (though as I've stated earlier, I've come most of the way already - I'm at my target "recovery" weight and have minimal issues with eating). I know they would still love me as much as they always have, and would in general be okay with it. I've got a great family - the best I could ask for.
The reason I won't tell them.... I think it would tear them up inside. I know my mom, especially, would blame herself. She has problems with depression, and I think that
she would think it was her fault and that she had done something wrong. In all honestly, my problems had nothing to do with them.... but I don't think that they would ever believe that. I don't want them to suffer with a mistaken belief that they harmed me in some way. And with them living across the country (they're moving to Arizona next week) I know they would fret about me needlessly.
Unfortunately, because I don't want to tell them that I have had to keep a lot of other things from them as well. I had a miscarriage about two years ago, because I damaged my reproductive system so badly the baby couldn't survive. It was one of the most painful moments in my life... but I didn't feel I could share it with them, since the cause for the miscarriage was a complication of the anorexia (and was actually a BIG thrust for me to change my life). It's a really viscious cycle.
Maybe someday I will tell them... but I don't know. I've come close a few times. If ever I can find a way to tell them without them (wrongly) blaming themselves.... I will.
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