Amy,
I have a lot to say to your response but not so much time. I'll try to get it all in.
First, you are exactly how I am. I'm the same way as far as always wanting the BEST. Well, I dated this girl for a LONG time, about 2 years. She was the first long term girlfriend that I ever had. (I don't know how I did it.) She is everything I ever wanted in a girlfriend/wife. She is the perfect height, light blonde hair (it's real, not dyed), beautiful blue eyes ( almost as good as mine). She's VERY smart. Has what I think is the best personality, one like mine. She knows how to get on my mothers good side and she gets along with my family very well. Another plus is the fact that she's getting a degree in 2 different types of engineering, which means she'll do fine in life as far as finances go.
Now, heres the icky part. I too feel like I can always find something better out there. There is some truth when people say that. You'll always be able to find someone who is better in some areas than what you have now. Now I'm not saying your in love with this guy, I should hope not yet, but I assume you really like him alot. I just want you to make sure you know the difference between love and lust. I personally am quite familiar with lust. I went out and tried to find something better. I cheated on that girlfriend over and over, just to try and see if I would be contempt with soemthing else and to find out whether or not it was the fact that I had been with her for a long time and that was the reason why I felt the way I did. Well, I screwed up and did what I'm notorious for, I bailed. I went on a binge and did my thing as far as whatever I wanted with whoever. All along I had her in the back of my mind. It kinda sucked because 1 time I just told this one chick to get hell out of my apartment because I felt so guilty. Like a moron I told her I haven't gotten fully over my ex and while I was banging her, my ex kept coming in my head. I got slapped. You can imagine the awkwardness in the room as soon as I told her. The chick couldn't believe what I just told her. Anyhow, after another 3 months of stuff like that going on I couldn't take it anymore. Luckily for me she was going through the same thing as far as being depressed and not wanting anyone other than me. ( I think chicks fall in love with a guy much quicker than guys falling for chicks.)
Finally, after straying away for some time I decided that she was the best I've ever had. True, she may have some things that annoy me but I've found that I can deal with her issues more than the other chicks of the past. To make a long story short, we got back together and have been happier than ever. When we started dating again she asked me how did I know I loved her. I told her she is the only girl I've ever known whos kisses make my skin feel weak. She is the only girl who can get my full undivided attention when speaking, and that when she speaks, her words do not go in one ear and right out the other ( for me thats a big thing because I usally turn on my selective hearing when a chick is yapping to me). I told her that after dating her for the time we did, she's become apart of me and losing her would be like losing a part of myself that I could never get back. Then I threw in alittle humour since she was crying and had her arms around me, I said, "and the fact that you seduced me." She playfully popped me across the face and said it was "inevitable", " I always get what I want".
My point is, if this guy is everything you say he is and he makes you very happy when around him, stay with him. Don't start doing what I normally do and begin to pick out the bad things about your opposite, as well as dwell on the irritative things he/she does. Once that starts happening it's all downhill. You have to open yourself up alittle to this guy and open him up as well.
After the 2 weeks is up, come hit me up.... we'll take this in baby steps. I'll try to help you out as much as I can. 2 weeks will be major progress.
As for the USC and UF game......If I'm not mistaken thats home coming for UF. If you're going to come down here and stay in Gainesville, I'll give you my new cell number and you can hang out with Jenn and the older DGs ( from 98 & 99) at UF. I've told her about you and she said you kinda sound like her before she met me. If you come I'll let her give you her cell number. Most of the older DGs don't go around the house often, their like older pikes, we don't go around the house all that often anymore neither. You and your girls might have the luxury of being able to hang with the south florida greek crowd at UF, we'll show you how to party Florida style. LOL
Hit me up on the email if you want.....
Dasangelsman@hotmail.com
*smooches*, Craig
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