While I'm usually a strong advocate of sticking with it and giving it your best, in your case, I think it might not be in your interest. It sounds to me like you're pretty overwhelmed with college and the change in lifestyle around you. If you drop now you can re-pledge there or somewhere else when you are in the right mental place to make friends and become part of a community. While it's true that you can use your membership to help get over your fears of the unknown (everyone is drinking? You just think that; it can't possibly be true or your chapter would be closed for terrible grades and risk management issues), if you're not prepared to step outside your box YET, then now is not the time to make a lifetime commitment.
Then, I would like to also recommend you seek counseling. Yes, I suggest that to just about everyone. College is stressful, overwhelming or even anxiety-inducing. Your problems with your chapter sisters are in you, not on them and you need to work that out before 4 years of college are behind you and you have no friends and no fun to look back on. Your school may well have a free or very inexpensive program, and I know at least my sorority offers counseling to members, I believe for free. Probably a lot of NPC and NPHC sororities do.
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