Wow! Guys, thanks for all of the advice!!! Yes, I do know it is ultimately MY decision and believe me, I'm really struggling with this! Yes, there are TWO sides to every story and I give you mine..uncut...the way that I see it. I doubt very seriously if my husband would give his side of things because he really doesn't see it the way I do (obviously). He has told me time and time again that he made a huge mistake (In my opinion, mistakes of this magnitude should happen once to be considered a mistake) and that he is ready to move on and make our relationship work. Do I trust him? No Why? Everytime he tried to prove himself, it was just an attempt to "fool" me again. (For example, he would change his cell number so I would believe there was no contact, and he would tell her that his phone was turned off because of the high cost...eventually, she'd call the number and ...well....you know the rest. But I have tried to trust...
Another thing....UF_Pike.....I did nothing wrong...nothing that I knew of....he never shared anything with me that he wasn't happy with...We had just gotton married...there was nothing I wouldnt do..the problem was...from the time of planning a wedding, marriage and post marriage, I never had a chance to experience anything and truly be a wife because this other person was ALWAYS there. We decided to have a child and after I found out about this affair, he had to go because I decided that I had had enough....willingly he left and I carried our child alone..Did he stop seeing her for the sake of his family? No, he went on..it was basically open season for him. I haven't filed for divorce yet because..well I figure I can milk it for what its worth...2 paychecks are always better than one..I know that he would support our son, but the question for me is one that I have been pondering for a lonnnnng time now....can I take another hit like this again.....Mentally, I can't deal with it..it 's not worth it...I m such a wimp in this way...Ive always preferred to be dumped...that way, my conscience wouldn't play these "what if" games with me. (CRAZY HUH???????) Also, counseling was discussed in the beginning.....this was another one of his attempts to get me to "believe" and "trust" that he was sincere...we were supposed to go seperately then together...he only went to 2 sessions
So what's a girl to do? Can u guys understand where I'm coming from?
By the way, HOOTIE! thanks soooo much!!!I want to pm you, but I don't know how....HELP!!
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