I got my card that morning and found out that I had recieved a bid to
Indianapolis. I know it's bad of me to say, but I was disappointed. Despite that however, I put on a smile and went to join the other girls in the group. I certainly wasn't going to ruin anyone elses bid day fun.
On the way back to the house I overheard some of the sisters talking about how a few of the other sororities dressed up in costumes or made fancy signs to greet their future sisters and how they thought it was stupid. I didn't mind the fact that this group didn't do those things, but it did bug me how they were putting down other groups. I did not like the idea that I might spend the next four years acting jealous of the other sororities like these girls were.
We all slept at the house that night. I stayed awake thinking for a long time. I know all the advice on here says to stick it out and that people typically learn to love their sorority and stuff, but I just didn't feel right about it. This would be a huge financial commitment. I felt like without being super excited about it this would not be worth the money or time.
Bid day pictures were the next morning. I didn't want to interfere with that since I wasn't planning on staying long anyway so I left before that.
I know this sounds bad and it may seem like I did the wrong thing, but I believe I made the best choice for me. My freshman year has been amazing! I couldn't have asked for a better set of friends than the ones that I have. Many of my favorite experiences these last two semesters would not have happened had I been in a sorority. I'm not saying that sorority life is a bad thing, it's something I really wanted to do and probably something that I will always have a small desire to do. Right after this week was over I was upset thinking that this process had been a failure for me. It wasn't. I think ended up where I was meant to be