Aside from the whole sorority/rush issue, it sounds like you've been through some pretty major life events this year.
I would strongly, strongly recommend that you seek out your school's counseling center and find someone that you can talk to during your recovery process.
Illness and surgery, regardless of the outcome, can leave you feeling very shaken up, emotionally. If you aren't getting the support you need from your friends who know your situation, you need to find other avenues of getting what you need.
The feel that I get from your original post is that you are confused, disappointed, scared and angry. You may be projecting some of that outwardly, and while you have a right to feel all those things, you need to find a way of effectively dealing with them so that they don't infect your interactions with others.
Good luck!
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