I too am very sorry for your loss. I feel as though my story may be the ZTA72 is speaking of? But I went through as a sophomore and am VERY happy with my recruitment. I did have a few cuts but still accepted a bid to one of my favorite chapters through out the week. I was pretty prepared though. Try to get recommendations from friends and relatives (if no one is Greek that you find look into Orlando's Alum. Association. If you contact them they will speak with you and send a letter to every chapter on your behalf) and watch your GPA. More than anything though, know what is great about you and show that during recruitment. Being true to yourself is the best way to know you are ending up where you belong. Good luck and if you have any questions please PM me