Confessions...

[I.A.S.K.]

1. He loves me more than I love him.
2. They dont understand why & where I wanna go (in life)
3. Someone who is very close to me (known her for forever) just cannot manage to keep her mouth closed about my business, but would kill me if I told hers and I never do tell hers.
4. I dont really care for my new boss. I mean bossy pays me less than my old boss and bossy is way more strict. Boss basically said i could care less if you are trying to move into your deceased gdads house and all of your clothes got lost by luggage people and you have acne....you better be here on time dressed to kill and have on make-up. I dont mind having my appearance on point all the time, actually I like it, but how do you admonish a person on their first day when its been explained that there is a situation going on. How do you tell me "being a sloppy broad (didnt exactly say these words but I got the message) may just be your style and thats fine, but I cant work with that so you need to evaluate if this is right for you" WTH? I explained the situation going on BEFORE you hired me...Im very well qualified all of your people loved me, but you didnt have to hire me and if i didnt want the job I wouldnt have spent more than I'll make in a week buying clothes, shoes, and "makeup" (what little I could find that wouldnt make my face break out) just to come work for you does that not show that ive evaluated the job and want it!
5. I REALLY REALLY REALLY miss him so much. I still havent gotten a chance to even be sad or cry about it. I have to deal with other people's greif and snide remarks about losing him like it doesnt hurt.
6. There is so much more. (and these are supposed to be the best four years of my life! NOT! well not right now)