^^^ I'm sorry you suffered the abuse and I'm glad you're out of it now. How horrible.
My sister broke off her engagement. She was 19 at the time and her fiance was a very nice guy but my mother and I were really worried about it. She took a trip out to Utah to meet her fiance's Mormon family. For a while after she got back she was like a zombie. All I remember her talking about were embroidered dish towels for each day of the week.

Finally she snapped out of it and called it off. My mother and I were SO relieved! My sister looks back in horror at the possibility that she could have been just a "baby-making machine."