Believe me when I say call them friends, I norammly always put quotes around the word ("friends") to signify that this is what they call themselves. Currently I have have stopped my friendship with one completely (#4). I dont like her, dont trust her, frankly i kinda wish I had never met her. The one I said I would I am close to I am going to keep. We can tell each other pretty much everything and let each other know whats pissing each toher off. The others are just associates. Its weird cuz at times I would get a lil jealous (its was materalistic stuff. again HSish) but when we got to college I started to realize how much better I am than then. I mean mnd wise. I have goals, im not male dependent. I talk about other stuff besides, bf's and clothes, like poilitcs, etc ( i just sat once while we were all together and though how shallow our coversations are and that we really dont talk about ANYTHING). Im independent overall, something they arent and I know there is a lil jealousy towards me from them on that. I think I finally realize this freshman year when I was told I was immature for reading YM magazine still
But you know how ppl are like, well try to work it out and talk to them and yada yada. We like I told the one im close to still... Ive tried I gave up, tried again...(worked with 1 the 2nd time) and now I just dont give a damn. As you said Lynn it kinda has been incredible stress. I use to feel like I was guilty. I have this things were even if m not wrong I still feel bad, but now its amzing that that feeling hasnt even shown. I just truely dont care cuz I know it isnt worth it. Thanks for your advice ladies.
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