I don't think that you necessarily have to go to counseling quite yet.
From our lectures we've had on grief and associated depression, you're following the normal progression for losing someone close to you.
It's normal for you to feel down, and it's normal for you to think about the deceased. It's also expected that certain things will trigger an emotional release when you lease expect it or least want to.
Some normal aspects of the grieving process:
- Severe symptoms in the first 1-2 months, but all sypmtoms usually ends in less than 6 months (and your only in week 2, it's OKAY to feel this way).
- Usually cylical...ie will come in waves, and you'll have bad days and you'll have good days.
- Normal to have some sort of hallucination episode on occassion (you saw the person in a crowded mall, heard her voice from the other room, etc.)
- Normal to have some self blame that you could have done more to help your friend, or resolved some issue that didn't get talked about at the end.
Again these are the NORMAL symptoms of Grief, and that is healthy. If you start having symptoms that are different (usually they will tend to be all the time and more severe) then something more serious might be happening to you.
I guess, as just a lowly first year medical student, my opinion is based off of just a couple of lectures, but right now what you are experiencing is what you should be. Hopefully with some understanding how long this should go on, how hard it might be, and that it WILL GET BETTER over time, you'll be able to cope better.
The key things right now should be to use your social network for support, be in touch with your feelings, realize that this is normal for someone only two weeks removed from such a traumatic and sudden death. If things seem to get worse, or your grief is really affecting your ability to function, then get help immediately, don't wait and think that a counselor or a doctor will dismiss it, they won't.
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