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No news yet.
However, I've been thinking lately, and being cut is affecting me a lot more than I thought it would. Now that school has started, and that I tutor some girls that just rushed, I realize what I'm missing. I really wish things would have happened diffrently. Yes, I know, like everyone always says, things happen for a reason. That is why I still have some hope and will try again in the spring.
I still don't understand why I was cut, and I know that I never will. I have a 3.1 gpa, I'm only a sophomore, I'm invovled in a national honor fraternity, I hold a part time job, and tutor on the side. I know it sounds like a full plate, but it really isn't. I'm busy yes, but I still have so much time that I have nothing. And, I do love the things that I'm invovled in, especially Phi Sigma Pi, but we are not as close as brothers than a sorority would ever be. We only talk at meetings, and rarely out of, and we have no close bonds.. but we do get a long. I don't know. I know to wait, and see how COB events go, but it's just painful being one of the very few that didn't receive a bid somewhere. I honestly feel like a loser. Maybe I am a little quite and reserved, but I feel that I can bring a lot to a sorority and it can bring a lot to my life. I would never let it hinder my academics, and I realy want to experience more on-campus involvement, philanthropies, and a strong acadmic standing. I've heard so many great things that sororities bring to women's lives, and I wish I could experience them. I know that during rush I was nervous and couldn't fully reveal myself, since I had to overcome my shyness, which I did, and still show these people that I could be a good addition to their group.
Being cut, has affected me, but I don't want it to negative affect me anymore that it has. I am a strong go-getter, and have never really been rejected in things that I have always gone after. So, I guess, this life lesson is sticking harder than I could have ever emagine. I must move on, and I will. I know if the time comes, I will be where I am supposed to be.
There's still one sorority that I would LOVE to hear back from, but I am going to try to concentrate on all other things. I've laid out a list of goals for this semester to overcome this refjection, so this is my new focus.
I just wish things would have happened diffrently... and just thinking about all of this makes me choke up so much. I guess it's hurting more each day, and I don't want to sound desperate about getting into a sorority. I know that there are other things in life, but this was a dream... and I must move on.
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