Emotional breakdown

[alphachiohmy]

Okay, here it is Sunday morning and I am so emotionally drained right now. Last night was one of those drunk and crying nights, and I haven't had one of those in so long.

I normally have a great head on my shoulders, like the person that I am, like my friends and family and am emotionally happy. And I felt like that all downspiraled last night. I feel like all this month, I have been helping my friends though depression, boyfriend problems, etc. but I need them to listen to me once in a while as well. I don't really like to drink to get drunk, but I did last night and I started to think that I don't like the person I have become - I have been going out more and more, not drinking alot but just going out for the sake of going out. Two things that were so important in my life a month ago - working out and church - have been missing. I am graduating in Dec. and am afraid of what comes next. I am so picky about guys that I like and have gotten a little old for the shacking thing( I was a freshmen once three years ago and went through a little period of that as a 17yo in college for the first time), yet all that went out the window this week.

Well, that in a nutshell is where I am at right now. I am actually going to head to the Vinyard, a church, and maybe workout today when the drunken hangover has worn off. Working out always lifts my spirits! Sorry, about my little tirade.